Jeffries died at age 4 - Feb. 13, 2007.
Jacob and I had been to Wal-Mart to buy Valentine’s Day gifts for the
girls. After dinner, Sasha went to her
room to play. A few minutes later,
Jacob, who was 7, went into Sasha’s room and found her face down on her
mattress. Somehow, in playing, she had
become entangled in some loose curtain trim and was strangled. Jacob witnessed the entire chaotic scene
that followed . . . emergency efforts, the trip to the hospital, questioning by
police, and the painful return to an empty house.
There are no words
to describe the pain that followed . . . for me and my son. Within a few months, Jacob’s mom left,
leaving another hole in Jacob’s life.
Our grief journey has been long and complicated . . . guilt, anger,
pain, questions and love. Jacob felt
guilty because he had not been able to keep Sasha safe –his job as a
brother. I have the same feelings as her
father. It took sooooo long to
comprehend that this had happened to our family. Jacob still struggles with that.
Jacob and I have a
very special bond. We love Sasha and we
love each other. That has helped us make
it. We know the life she is living now
is better than anything I could have provided for her here. I find comfort in the words of the James Dean
song . . . "Where or where can my baby be?
The Lord took her away from me.
She’s gone to Heaven so I gotta be good.
So I can see my baby when I leave this world.” We will be together again.