Hickerson July 2, 1993 – March 3,
On March 3, 2008
our lives changed forever. We had just
returned from a weekend trip. It was
unusual for me to be home early (4:00 p.m.) but I was; (now I know God made
sure that I was there). A short while
later Tyler-my youngest son, my mom, and I were sitting in the front room, and
I heard a loud thump. Rodger Neil, our
14-year-old son, had fallen back in his chair.
I asked, "Are you okay?” With no
answer, I went into the kitchen and could tell he was not breathing, so I
started CPR. My mom started calling for
arrived, and I just knew it would be alright.
We arrived at the hospital behind the ambulance and Rod, my husband, who
had been at work arrived shortly. We
were taken into a small room about 15 minutes later, and we were told he was
There were no
answers for us; we were left to wonder "WHY?”
"Where was God when we needed him?”
"Why us and not someone else?” "He was a good kid - never in any
trouble.” Then they wanted to know if
they could have his organs. That was hard but I know it was the right thing to
do. We walked through the motions of a
funeral trying to keep it together for Tyler.
By this time he was sleeping with us because of nightmares.
Two months later
we received a phone call that we knew would answer everything- it didn’t! The autopsy report did not find a cause of
death. "Now what do we do??” We talked
to doctors and lawyers; no one had answers and the insurance companies would
not pay our policies. We are left with
so many questions.
God has been there
for us, in ways we just didn’t recognize.
We will never take tomorrow for granted again. We will be with him again someday.